Old Age and New Experience

Things were quiet when I logged in today, so I took a little time to start building a new deck on the house. Out of the sky falls a girl, wearing cuffs and a collar, and a skimpy little dress. Odd as that sounds, it's not unheard of in Lochme, the sim I live in.
At first I was a little annoyed, as she was obviously a newbie. A glance at her mostly empty profile showed that she was almost a year old though, so I deemed her "perma-noob" and got ready to ask her to leave. Then she said to me, "can you help?" Now, I may be evil, but I am not mean, so I asked her what she needed, and of course waited for a reply, because perma-noobs always talk slow...
It seems the poor dear couldn't see names or location, or teleport. I checked her restraints quickly, but they were all unlocked. After messing about for awhile I finally determined that she's worn a relay at some point and coached her through removing it, viola', issue solved.
I talked with her for a bit, but I really wasn't in the mood for a scene with a subbie I didn't know, so she went her way and thanked me for my time.

This whole thing got me to thinking. We all were new once. What is it the kept some of us coming back, and how is that we aren't perma-noobs too?

I've met basically two kinds of people that remain in SL a long time. Geeks and writers. Yes, I said geek.. But it's true, it's those people that have been the backbone of SL since it was new.
And the writers, or the creative wordsmiths, have nurtured culture and ideas within the framework.

So the next newbie you meet, take the time and be nice. I know most of us are.

We were all new once.

Insight out of the past

Last summer I got the wild idea to claim a plot on the Playa of Burning Life. If you don't know what that is google Burning Man. Burning Life is the SL equivalent, and I won't go into details about it here. You just need to know that it was a way to deal with having too much SL time and needing a creative outlet. I had the help of two of my sisters, Shae and Sharie, without whom it would never have happened. Ru and Tot gave me tons and tons of pictures to use, and De was there almost everyday to play hostess with me. Many more deserve thanks as well.
But I digress.. The plot right next to mine was claimed by a Brit. She had a display about some silly idea involving peace through tea, of all things.. (I'm teasing Anna) I guess you need to know that my display was the only one involving BDSM and SL. (There may have been others, but no one ever found one that I heard about) And poor Anna had the fortune, or misfortune to get as her neighbor a bunch of latex clad females that were tied up half of the time. Long story shortened, Anna came to me privately and confessed an interest in BDSM, and indeed she and I explored some things together. I won't reveal any more as she is a very private person and I hope she forgives me for saying this much.
Anna and I drifted apart, as often happens in SL, for whatever reasons. But last night out of the blue (and oddly enough I had been thinking about her that day) she IM's me. We talk a bit, exchanging pleasantries the way the Brits do. I invited her to Ash's new home for a visit and to show off my darling girl as well. (She's quite the decorator btw). Anna invited us to see her island home, so we went for a visit there as well. I have to admit that even though it is very tiny, it's relaxing and pleasant.
When it was time to go I got the feeling Anna had more to say. I remember from BL that she's not the kind to talk openly unless she's comfortable with her surroundings and assured of privacy, so I sent Ash home and probed Anna a bit. Surprisingly she seemed to be more concerned about me than I would have thought. She asked how I was doing after leaving Ru, commented on how hard giving up the collar can be for everyone. She wondered how my sisters were doing, and asked how the Domme life was treating me.
Anna asked if I was putting the needs of my girls before my own. My answer flowed out of me easily, because it's the truth and the way I feel. Yes, I am, but in so doing their needs become my own. I feel.. no, I become satisfied, and joyful when they get what they need from me.

But the one thing that really surprised me.. that made me stop and really think..

She asked if my own needs weren't just as important as theirs..

Grabbing the Tail by the Tiger.

As elusive as submission has been for me in the past few months I was somewhat shocked by my desire for it a few nights ago. I'm not the sort to wander sims with keys hanging out to be grabbed. There is one person I will call upon once in awhile, but she was busy at the time.

Dressed in my favorite latex and wearing cuffs and a gag I stayed safely in my sanctuary, contemplating self bondage but not willing to risk the letdown that can bring. For some odd reason I remembered a place I used to frequent. I've only rarely seen anyone there, though it is a public spot dedicated to bondage. Kimiko's used to be my "home" before I actually had one in SL. It was a place I could go to rez new items and experiment with them.
I even recently purchased an isolation chamber to replace the one that used to be there when I was new. Of course there was no one there when I tp'd in.
Just for fun I took a picture of me next to the Iso chamber and sent it to the person that owned the one from before. She is a Domme that would come to me once in awhile when she needed to submit. Alas, she was offline..

I'm not exactly sure why, but I saw another name on my friend's list that caught my interest. She was a recent addition, and one I didn't know that well, but I sent her that same picture. Soon she arrived, out of curiosity I think because she knew me only as a Domme.

What followed was a night of whirlwind intensity for me. Somehow I trusted her right away, and she found the hidden things within me that needed to come out. I was taken dancing, something I enjoy in SL, though she took me bound and gagged, and even stripped me on the dance floor in front of a room full of strangers (but her friends). Public humiliation is not something I can take very often, but I guess the need to be controlled and used as a plaything was strong.
Later she took me to a sim where I have a Domme title. Still naked and bound she gave me a relay to keep me from leaving the sim and restrict me in other ways. She left me there for the night. I hate to admit it, but the experience was what I needed and left me in quite an aroused state. "You've got it bad Miss" she teased, and she was exactly right.

I'm not going to tell you who this mystery person is, but suffice it to say I "got even" with her and she added my name to her collar tonight. No, I didn't take on another sub, just the demonic part of one that needs me from time to time..

The next day my darling Ash came to my rescue and I snapped right back to my Domme role without a second thought. It is who I am now, I just needed a short vacation.

Roses Among Thorns

If you stay at Estate Obscure long enough you'll meet the wonderful little Aki. She's a doll hiding a wicked imagination and creativity that rivals anyone I know. She's not just about role play though. She's an accomplished builder and scripter as well as an artist. She's there to help her friends with most anything. She'll also tease you mercilessly by sending you erotic artwork :)

Silias is another that I've just recently met at the Estate. With this one it's her pale skin and shockingly blue hair (not to mention the long tail) that grabs your attention. She's a demon out of disguise, but I have some experience with those feral creatures. I hope to explore this one a bit further soon.

I met a sweet girl at Pandora's a few nights back. She innocently goes by the name Summer, but under shocking pink tresses lurks a soul addicted to pain and being made to feel it. Punishment scenes are not my big thing, but tormenting a painslut that helplessly orgasms when I snap the crop in *just* the right place is irresistible.

I get lucky every so often and SL drops another treasure in my lap. So many already, Ashelia, Eniper, all of my Sisters, Idoru, Rayn, Angie and Shae, Alex, more than I can possibly list. If I missed you don't feel slighted. It's late and I'm tired ;)

Do me a favor though, if you find one of these special people, give them a hug and tell them that Shi loves them dearly. I'll owe you one.

Lost

Faye..

Of timing and experience.

I've mentioned Eniper before here, and by now some of you know why I wasn't posting anything. Eni reads this blog sometimes and if she had any insight on what I was thinking at the time, I would have failed.
Eni and I met so long ago in SL. She's been wandering, searching for the right person to take hold of her. I made a half hearted attempt quite some time ago, but failed. Neither of us were ready at the time.
Recent events brought us back together, and the timing was right. She ran from me like a scared rabbit, more than once, but each time I tracked her down (with help from great friends, thank you all!) and slowly took away her fear and resistance. It wasn't easy for either of us. She feared that I would give in, and I feared that I would push too hard.
I told her, about half way through, that it was she that made me stronger. My knowing that she needed me to be strong, to be the one to take "it" away from her, made me capable of doing it. I've loved Eni for a long time, and I hope to continue getting even closer to her, now as not only her friend, but as her Mistress.
My darling Ashelia counseled me, and helped me with some of the SL tools I seem to be out of touch with (feeling my avatar's age..) and indeed, had a say in whether or not I would make Eni her sister. Ash is my first, and to her I owe a great deal. Not only for her ideas and skills, but without her willingness to accept a clumsy Mistress, I never would have had the confidence.

Stay tuned

I know it's been a bit since my last blog, but bear with me. Something special is happening and I don't want to give it away just yet!