Grabbing the Tail by the Tiger.

As elusive as submission has been for me in the past few months I was somewhat shocked by my desire for it a few nights ago. I'm not the sort to wander sims with keys hanging out to be grabbed. There is one person I will call upon once in awhile, but she was busy at the time.

Dressed in my favorite latex and wearing cuffs and a gag I stayed safely in my sanctuary, contemplating self bondage but not willing to risk the letdown that can bring. For some odd reason I remembered a place I used to frequent. I've only rarely seen anyone there, though it is a public spot dedicated to bondage. Kimiko's used to be my "home" before I actually had one in SL. It was a place I could go to rez new items and experiment with them.
I even recently purchased an isolation chamber to replace the one that used to be there when I was new. Of course there was no one there when I tp'd in.
Just for fun I took a picture of me next to the Iso chamber and sent it to the person that owned the one from before. She is a Domme that would come to me once in awhile when she needed to submit. Alas, she was offline..

I'm not exactly sure why, but I saw another name on my friend's list that caught my interest. She was a recent addition, and one I didn't know that well, but I sent her that same picture. Soon she arrived, out of curiosity I think because she knew me only as a Domme.

What followed was a night of whirlwind intensity for me. Somehow I trusted her right away, and she found the hidden things within me that needed to come out. I was taken dancing, something I enjoy in SL, though she took me bound and gagged, and even stripped me on the dance floor in front of a room full of strangers (but her friends). Public humiliation is not something I can take very often, but I guess the need to be controlled and used as a plaything was strong.
Later she took me to a sim where I have a Domme title. Still naked and bound she gave me a relay to keep me from leaving the sim and restrict me in other ways. She left me there for the night. I hate to admit it, but the experience was what I needed and left me in quite an aroused state. "You've got it bad Miss" she teased, and she was exactly right.

I'm not going to tell you who this mystery person is, but suffice it to say I "got even" with her and she added my name to her collar tonight. No, I didn't take on another sub, just the demonic part of one that needs me from time to time..

The next day my darling Ash came to my rescue and I snapped right back to my Domme role without a second thought. It is who I am now, I just needed a short vacation.

Roses Among Thorns

If you stay at Estate Obscure long enough you'll meet the wonderful little Aki. She's a doll hiding a wicked imagination and creativity that rivals anyone I know. She's not just about role play though. She's an accomplished builder and scripter as well as an artist. She's there to help her friends with most anything. She'll also tease you mercilessly by sending you erotic artwork :)

Silias is another that I've just recently met at the Estate. With this one it's her pale skin and shockingly blue hair (not to mention the long tail) that grabs your attention. She's a demon out of disguise, but I have some experience with those feral creatures. I hope to explore this one a bit further soon.

I met a sweet girl at Pandora's a few nights back. She innocently goes by the name Summer, but under shocking pink tresses lurks a soul addicted to pain and being made to feel it. Punishment scenes are not my big thing, but tormenting a painslut that helplessly orgasms when I snap the crop in *just* the right place is irresistible.

I get lucky every so often and SL drops another treasure in my lap. So many already, Ashelia, Eniper, all of my Sisters, Idoru, Rayn, Angie and Shae, Alex, more than I can possibly list. If I missed you don't feel slighted. It's late and I'm tired ;)

Do me a favor though, if you find one of these special people, give them a hug and tell them that Shi loves them dearly. I'll owe you one.

Lost

Faye..

Of timing and experience.

I've mentioned Eniper before here, and by now some of you know why I wasn't posting anything. Eni reads this blog sometimes and if she had any insight on what I was thinking at the time, I would have failed.
Eni and I met so long ago in SL. She's been wandering, searching for the right person to take hold of her. I made a half hearted attempt quite some time ago, but failed. Neither of us were ready at the time.
Recent events brought us back together, and the timing was right. She ran from me like a scared rabbit, more than once, but each time I tracked her down (with help from great friends, thank you all!) and slowly took away her fear and resistance. It wasn't easy for either of us. She feared that I would give in, and I feared that I would push too hard.
I told her, about half way through, that it was she that made me stronger. My knowing that she needed me to be strong, to be the one to take "it" away from her, made me capable of doing it. I've loved Eni for a long time, and I hope to continue getting even closer to her, now as not only her friend, but as her Mistress.
My darling Ashelia counseled me, and helped me with some of the SL tools I seem to be out of touch with (feeling my avatar's age..) and indeed, had a say in whether or not I would make Eni her sister. Ash is my first, and to her I owe a great deal. Not only for her ideas and skills, but without her willingness to accept a clumsy Mistress, I never would have had the confidence.

Stay tuned

I know it's been a bit since my last blog, but bear with me. Something special is happening and I don't want to give it away just yet!