A New Day Dawns

And with it come changes. Submissive Shi is all but gone. Domme Shi is opening like a new rose. Is this a permanent change? Isn't the phrase "permanent change" an oxymoron anyhow? I didn't see this coming. Hindsight being 20/20 perhaps I should have. Playing the dominant role has gotten more and more fulfilling, while finding happiness as a sub has become elusive.

I keep looking at the above paragraph and rereading it, wondering who it may hurt, who it may shock. Idoru, to be sure will be affected by it. I don't know what this change will cause in our relationship. But then I read it again and I know that there are some that will be made happy by this change in direction.

Am I all Domme now? I hardly think so. I'll continue to test my limits and myself. Once a switch always a switch I think. A dear friend told me only today that she came to SL never expecting to be collared, yet now she is. I had to smile. Back when Shibari was younger she said almost the same thing. Those close to me will remember "never to own or be owned".

We change, it cannot be helped. We can only strive to make those changes for the better.

As a side note, I have been getting some feedback from this blog. Thank you to all who have left comments and to those that have pulled me aside to tell me your thoughts within SL. Alt especially, for your sharing of a sunset with a lonely bane caused ripples in my pond that have made me a very happy person.

Everything that has a beginning...

At the suggestion of my two most loyal friends I have begun a blog. Since I have decided to go through with Marine Kelly's Bane Program they think it would be wise if I were to document the experience. The thought had occurred to be before as a large part of my decision was made from reading my sister Jesse's blog on the very subject.

But I'm not going to start right off with the Banishment, which began earlier today. Rather, a bit about myself, just in case someone is curious.

Shibari Hobble. I chose my name for a reason. In RL I must hide who I am, at least in part. I'm sure it's true for most of us involved in BDSM at least in some way. With Shibari, there's no hiding what my interests are. If you know what the word means, you're likely to click my profile where you're going to find out that " The first thing you should know is that I'm a basically well adjusted-somewhat "normal" person with some strange interests."
Yes, I'm into fetish clothing, I like to tie and be tied up, I'm a bit of a sadomasochist and I really, really enjoy domination. There, all out in the open, right from the start. No dancing around it, no denial.

I was brought into SL by an online friend with a mutual interest in chastity belts. She and I never did much together on SL, but I am grateful to her for introducing me to it and helping me get a start. Along the way I have met some wonderful people. Some I cherish and have managed to keep close, some left right away, and some have simply faded. It's one of those things about Sl that you just have to deal with somehow, or else you'll quickly tire of it.

Early in my Second Life I met Shae Thatcher. Undoubtedly one of the single best people in either RL or SL. Together with her partner Angie they have held my hand and made things ok, when they really didn't seem like they were.
My SL would have ceased long ago without my dear Sister Tot Corrigible. She possesses a heart of purest gold and it shines through in her devilish but oh-so-sweet nature. Wise beyond my comprehension she is an old soul that enriches any life it touches.
Idoru Ryba... what can I say about my Mistress? She's the One. It's cliche' but it happens to be true in her case. My Mistress, my Love, my Friend. How she pulls off all three at the same time I don't understand, but I strive to in hopes of becoming a better person myself.

This is the beginning of my blog, and as such I don't intend it as a list of the myriads of people that I have grown so fond of. I hope you know who you all are, and how much you mean to me.

Some of the experience that have shaped Shi into the creature she is now deserve at least a brief mention here. Not necessarily in any order, here are a few:

• Discovery of Stonehaven and Realrestraints. I must admit that I am proud to have known SH in it's old location, even if only briefly. Dirk's playground is where I cut my teeth in SL. About the same time I stumbled upon RR and things went wild from there.
• Yasmin Heartsdale. Still and always loved by me, this kind hearted wicked Huntress of SH taught me so much about SL and indeed, about relationships.
• Pandora's Box Prison. Though I eventually "outgrew" the place I will always enjoy all the people I interacted with there, both as a prisoner and for a far longer time as a guard.
• Rayn Halpint. The annoying little minx turned dear sweet friend. Now a ghost in SL, I still value her above so many.
• Eni. My dear sweet Eni that time itself steals away from me. How cruel timezones can be.
• Faye, my lover. I can't list here all the things Faye has made me feel. To try would make my heart swell with joy and break with pain.
• Lochme and Sunset Beach Retreat, where I live. Thank you Sharie, it means more than you know.

Enough for now of my reminiscences. All things must begin somewhere.